can you notice what you're already apart of?
"the chance to be part of THIS happens briefly. the invitation is not to show how inventive and imaginative you are. but how much you can notice what you're already part of. and appreciate it and share it. and care about those that are around you and look out for for their welfare while you are looking out for your own. that's it. - Burgs"
these words froze my body and sent shivers down my spine and screamed LISTEN TO ME. they would ultimately be the words that would inspire me to start writing again.
But what would I write about? How much would I share? Do I really have enough somethings of value to say to justify starting a blog? When I came back to the quote that inspired me, the revelation that followed was an overwhelming sense of relief and affirmation.
"the invitation is not to show how inventive and imaginative you are. but how much you can notice what you're already part of. and appreciate it and share it"
I realized that all of my questions and fears and doubts were about me - my ego was driving this train. Would I be successful? What would I write about? How inventive and imaginative am I?
No, no no! That was not why I started writing. The quote. How much can I notice? How much can I appreciate the things I notice? How much can I share them? And in doing so, can I look out for the welfare of others, while I look out for my own? Isn't that kind of the core of medicine? Isn't that why we do what we do?
So here is a picture of my dear friend Colby, holding my dear friend Brittany's dear friend Ellie. Colby studies space at CU and wants to change the world by protecting the environment. Brittany is kind, she is patient and she is incredibly good with working with other humans as a director of HR for a massively successful company. And, well, Ellie is just the absolute best. Bringing smiles and sticks to trip over to our life since 2016, she makes life more fun. I love and appreciate all three. And hopefully, sharing this photo of them makes you think of what you're grateful for too.
Choosing a life in medicine is sacrifice. There will be a million more of these summer pizza filled nights in the future that I will miss, because I am working in a Children's Hospital somewhere. And that used to make me really sad. But for now, I am choosing to be here, with Ellie and Colby and the mountain house of my dreams, making homemade pizza, laughing until I cry with the ones I love.
Cause when you really get down to what is important, that's it.
The quote is from the song Burgs by Mt. Wolf. The song has changed my life. If you create the time and space for yourself to listen to it, I think it might change your life too. I'll post a link to the song below.
https://soundcloud.com/mtwolf/burgs
Here are some pics from the day of other things I'm grateful for, taken by Brittany. I feel so lucky, and so very grateful.
